Hello, and welcome to day 2, 45 or 116 of no school. I actually have no idea what day it is today. Hand on my heart, gun to my head, I couldn’t tell you. I’ve lost count.
This tends to happen during school holidays, although at least then I have an end date to focus on. This time, there’s nothing. It’s all unknown. And there’s a good chance I won’t know what day it is for a very long time.
(According to this study, I’m not alone in this, so it’s not just a case of me being super frazzled all the time, which is a relief.)
Usually, not having a clue what day it is stresses me out. But at the moment, I’m actually ok with not knowing. As far as I know, there are no birthdays coming up that I need to remember. Mother’s Day has been and gone, so I don’t need to remember that. And all the things I had planned and appointments I need to go to have been cancelled.
For the first time in my life, not knowing what day it is, is ok. And for the first time, I know that there are loads of people having trouble keeping track of the days.
Realising that there is nothing you can forget to do for a while, is quite an odd feeling. It’s freeing, but at the same time unnerving. It’s a little bit like being an escaped balloon. Finally flying free, but with no direction or clue what’s going on. Or a bit like waking up after a massive night out, and not knowing where you are, who you are or what time it is.
I don’t think this is going to effect anything massively. Now all the children are at home for an extended period of time, it doesn’t really matter if I don’t know what day it is. Days and dates are irrelevant now. Although, it is making it a little bit tricky to answer any questions.
What day are we going back to school?
I’ve been asked what day they are going back to school more times than I’ve been asked what’s for dinner. Even when I say I have no idea, they still ask “yeah, but what day though Mum?” Like maybe I didn’t understand the question or something. Any answer I’ve given to this question hasn’t been acceptable. So now I’m just answering with “It will definitely be a day that ends with a Y” and leaving it at that.
I reckon I can only get away with that for a couple more days at best.
What day did we?
I hate questions that start off with “what day did we?” Because I never know the answer. Unless it’s something that happened to fall on a particular date that’s stayed in my mind, I’m afraid I have no idea what day we ate chips, or what day we drove past a funny looking cat. Sorry kids.
When can we go?
Just as I have a problem with remembering days in the past, I’m not good at planning things in the future either. It’s hard to plan something when it’s likely you’ve already committed to something and then completely forgotten about it. And it’s definitely hard planning a future activity when you know you’ll forget you said you’d do something.
I hate being asked this, because I know the kids are expecting me to answer properly, but I’ll always just say “maybe” or “we’ll see” and hope they forget to ask again.
I am an impulsive person. Now, whether I’m impulsive because I can’t remember things, or whether I can’t remember things because I’m impulsive, I don’t know. But I’m sure I drive my children mad with this as much as they drive me mad by walking mud across a newly washed floor.
Seizing the day is one thing – but knowing what day it is, is something completely different.
Now we’re entering lockdown in the UK in a bid to stop the Covid-19 pandemic, it really won’t matter if I don’t know what day it is. We’ll just take each day at a time, and get through each one as best we can. I will make sure my children are doing the school work that has been set, but I won’t be sticking to a daily plan. What’s the point if I’ve lost all sense of the actual days? And I will try to make sure they learn as much as they can during this weird lockdown time we’re suddenly going through.
Until one day, when lockdown is lifted, when we won’t need to practice social distancing anymore and when schools are open to all pupils again. When that happens, I will make sure I keep on top of remembering what day it is. Well, as much as I can do.